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[18 Dec 2005|10:20pm] |
so i am sitting here with patrick and i have nothing to say right now i never update this thing.
from time to time i check my friends and i see whaat you guys allhave to say.
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[01 Dec 2005|03:58pm] |
so last night i got a speeding ticket.
i was going 105 in 65 and i had no insurance.
i almost went to jairl.
butt i didnt.
i got lucky.
i have 3 points on my record now in the past year.
1 more until may then i get my license suspended.
i have to drive careful
kinda sucks.
♥
i know its been a long time. ill start updating again soon im going to be getting a new journal.
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[12 Nov 2005|05:36pm] |
i really dont update this thing anymore.
lol.
im gonna make a new one soon.
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[04 Oct 2005|07:33pm] |
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friends only...comment to be added.
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[04 Oct 2005|04:20pm] |
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thats cooter.
its who i hung out with last night.
haha we spent 15 min trying to decide who was going to drive. i let her.
we talked about dumb stuff.
went to matt and chris's.
ate at del taco bell (hahaha).
went to her friends house.
she dropped me off.
the end.
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[04 Oct 2005|02:14am] |
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i feel like i give to much.
i do and do and do for people then they fuck me over.
i give rides. money. and im usually nice.
whatever. i can and never will trust anyone.
maybe im better off without friends.
the only friends ill ever need are
matt chris and erica because they are the only ones that have stuck by me
been there for me with what ive needed.
im going to school. getting a job.
thats all i need.
ill let people be angry with me and hate me.
but i cant let that get to me.
im tired of trying to make people happy.
the only person i need to make happy is myself.
so if you think all those things you wrote.
think twice.
i used to say it was low when people thought about killing themselves.
maybe not. cause thats how i feel. nobody needs me anyways.
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[03 Oct 2005|04:47pm] |
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ehhh.
im lazzyyy today.
nothing to do.
nowhere to go.
i think im visiting erica tonight.
we are gonna go get jamba juice.
i love her and i miss her.
so thats that.
( anberlin )
^^^^^
thats just how i feel.
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[03 Oct 2005|02:33am] |
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It's a fight between my heart and mind,
No one really wins this time
No one really wins this time
If you don't find the love you want,
if I have acted ungracefully
I don't want to see you go
I never meant to make you want to leave
But go if you want.
Make your way straight to the door.
I hope that you look back before you go 'cause grace looks back before it starts to leave
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[01 Oct 2005|04:01pm] |
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last night i went to arcadia and picked up kyle from work. we drove to stacees and met up with a bunch of her friends. then we were off to covina to pick up ryan. we drove to corona to the showcase to see nevea tears because stacee and clair and ryan know john the singer. it was fun. it was gross in there because it was hot. butttt it was cool meeting new people. stacees best friend ryan is awesome. we talked about stupid things. it was like 12:15 and the show got out. i went out early to make a phone call... but then we all left. we drove to circle K to get some drinks and then drove ryan back home and i went to stacees. i hung out with the girls and then my friend mark who i havent seen in over a year. i didnt get in bed till 6:30 this morning. but it was all worth it.
i had so much fun and i love all of my friends so much.
its kinda funny how sometime people hold you back from having a life.
it kinda sucks that you wait for them because they tell you too and then they fuck it up. i love how this means nothing to you. how you really dont care and only tell me you do. you get jealous over me and expect me to not have a life. then you lie to me. thats fine. im better than that. i hoep you are happy. would have been 3 more days. maybe its better this way.
( anightwithchrisandmattfontilla )
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[30 Sep 2005|04:09pm] |
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bleh.
my tummy hurts. being a woman sucks most def.
tonight i am going to arcadia to visit stacee then we are going to a show at the showcase. yeeeeppp. and thats the end of that.
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[29 Sep 2005|04:18pm] |
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im tired of the same people reading my shit and leaving random comments.
do you really not have a life? do you have to go and read my stuff make a screen name and leave me a message? are you that pathetic? do you really think it bothers me that you dont like me? no. it just bothers me that you cant stay out of my business. obviously you are interested in my life otherwise you wouldnt be reading about it.
leave me the fuck alone.
dont leave me shit comments.
stay out of my business.
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[28 Sep 2005|07:23pm] |
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and i still love him.
::sigh::
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[28 Sep 2005|11:43am] |
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haha thats how i feel.
havent slept at home for 3 nights. and you know what I LOVE IT!!!!
last night i had alot of fun. i went to the mall. hmm.. got some food. decided i was gonna become vegitarian.. mind you i am still gonna eat dairy. and as far as the sushi goes i can still eat cali rolls cause they are imitation crab. sooo. yea. then after the mall we went to jamba juice and back to stacees. got on the internet. lol.... thennnnn we kinda just hung out the whole night and me and stacee watched face off while kyle went to sleep. i got to bed around 4. and nowww. im here at home. the wind is really bad here right now... and it fucked up our entire back yard. it sucks. our trees got knocked down and everything is out of its place. buttt thats mother nature for you.
i need to start going to be earlier if i am gonna make it to school on time. lol.. i have a month to get myself on track. i am SOOOO EXCITED!
the end.
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[27 Sep 2005|01:45pm] |
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sooo i registered at pasadena city college. im a part of the school now.
the class was full but all i have to do is show up on the first day with stacee and theyll add me in!!! im soo excited.
i got fired from my job. my family hates me. but maybe things will be better.
ive been with my friends nonstop for the past 5 days. i came home right now for a little to shower and upload these lovely pics im gonna put up of all the fun ive had.
im glad ive been with friends. they keep my mind off of things.
the other night we went to kaylas its right after santa clarita. we stayed the night. shes awesome and has awesome friends.
theennn last night i went to the House Of Blues in aneheim
oh my god can you say an amzing show!!! it was definatly worth the 25 dollars.
soo heres allll the pics from the past few days with kyle and stacee.
yesterday i didnt get to take any at the show but ohh well.
( youbreakmyheartintoathousandpeices )
the end.
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[25 Sep 2005|12:46pm] |
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OMFG!!
im enrolling at school on monday! Pasadena City College. Im quitting my job and i am gonna be going to beauty school 5 days a week from like 7:30am-5:00pm. Stacee is going to the same place so she said i can sleep at her house a few nights a week and just ride in together. i am soo happy.
for once. i am doing something i have always wanted to do. I am taking out 2 loans. and my family and parents are helping me with my car food and play money. I will finish probably in Oct of next year. I am soooo happy.
im actually gonna do this.
heres some pics from yesterday and the day i hung out with matthew and christopher!!!
( yay!! )
the end
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[24 Sep 2005|10:29pm] |
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gahhh i love my friends so much.
ive been with them since friday and i am still with them right now..
sooo friday. i was supposed to be with nick for the weekend but he never called so im giving up on him completely cause one moment hes there with me kissing me and the next hes a flake. not to mention the fucking idiots that like to talk SHIT and tell me im lying when im not. like im gonna lie in my own fucking journal. pathetic. anywayyss.. so i called manduh on friday and i came out to arcadia to stacees. we drove to hollywood. we went to hustler where they were having a signing for pirates some new porn. soo it was fun. me and manduh bought some porn. mine has janine in it. shes HOT hehe. anyways.. then after that we went to hollywood and highland. we walked arounf FOREVER. watched some breakdancers got coffee took some pics. looked at the stars on hollywood blvd. it was fun. THENNNNN we all went to my house where manduh got drunk it was funny. we just sat around funny thing was, we were watching the porn like it was a regular movie. soo we were pretty much tired and me and stacee took my bed and kyle and manduh got the floor. we woke up at noon and that was it. manduh went home and kyle stacee and i got ready for the day at my house and burnt a million cds. we went to matts house to get my camera that i left there and then we got gas and headed to manduhs. we went to the tyler mall and walked around for a couple of hours. i got some cute jeans from american eagle and i wore them out of the store. they were like 40 dollars. they have little rips in them. then we all went to red robin and ate. we went to manduhs house and then headed back to stacees where im at right now typing this. i dont want to go home. i have so much fun with my friends. monday i am going to the house of blues in aneheim for a show. and next weekend ill be with my friends AGAIN. thats all my weekend was AMAZINNGG...
ill have pics up soon from it.
the end.
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[21 Sep 2005|08:19pm] |
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i got my xrays done today of my back. now i just have to make an appt at the ortho to look at them. i didnt go to work. cause i didnt feel like it.
sooo it was around 3 and nick called me. and we wanted to see eachother so i drove out there to him. we went to dennys in hollywood and to hustler. we kinda just talked and stuff. im still seeing him on friday which will be nice. we are gonna go to the movies out here and come back to my place. today he didnt feel good it was sucky. we talked about ryan and stuff and the funny things that he always says. andddd well. that was all. we held hands, gave some kisses and hugs. it was nice. anddddd the i love yous are still there. we are still working out our problems. we'll see where it takes us. his bday is not this saturday but the next. im gonna have to do something for him. maybe i can get ahold of ryan hehe. im sure we an figure something out. and then our 1 year anniversary is that follwing tuesday and its a plan to be back together by then. maybe once we hit the 1 year mark... well be able to know that we can overcome anything. cause thats what we have done. weve been through soo much together it isnt even funny. the past 3 months have been super shakey but i know we'll both be happy in the end.
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[20 Sep 2005|09:53pm] |
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i saw mathew and christopher fontilla last night. i miss my buddies. bill came over and he got a new car. its awesome. well hes had it but i never got to see it. im glad i got to visit them. we just hung out and listened to music and looked at their pet spider. hes pretty cool.
tonight i went out with manduh and we went to victoria gardens and walked around.
i got more stuff from victorias secret. (body sprays and lotion) we talked it was nice. i missed her ALOT. and i still have yet to see stacee and kyle. i miss them tons too.
i talked to nicholas last night he called me and we talked ALOT. and then today i talked to him almost all day. there were periods where i had to go. but he is feeling sore from riding. im seeing him on friday. we are gonna go see the corpse bride and go to hustler. he told me he loves me and misses me. and i apologized for being such a fucking bitch to him last friday. we are good. taking things slow. his bday is in 11 days and our 1 year is in 14 days sooo hopefully we'll be official before then. buttttt if not then theres a reason for everything. i love him alot. and i feel like a complete idiot for jumping to conclusions about him and saying the fucked up shit i did. i told him wed work on it together. soo im excited to see him. its been a week.
anywayss. thats all thats new. nothing extravagant. but my life is getting better. i need to just learn to be nicer.
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[19 Sep 2005|02:12pm] |
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soooo
im bored.
yesterday i went shopping spent 220 dollars at victorias secret. it was fun.
hung out witht the mom and gma.
today.
i had to go to urgent care for my back.
it sucked. tomorrow i go to get xrays.
must be a pinched nerve from sleeping on my bed.
dads gonna buy me a new matress.
i miss you (to someone that dropped me off the face of the earth a while back)
the end.
ps. im kinda confused with this certain situation.
i wish this person would decide to be or be without me.
not both. cause its fucking me up.
we'll see. i hope this person isnt lying to other people about
physically being with me or talking to me. cause then that would fuck things up even more. i hope it gets better.
and i miss my friends.
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